Trigger Warning: Sex, Offensive Language
as I sexualize you
I watch myself objectify you
cut clothes to fit your frame
move you till you’re perfectly arranged
until we’re in intimate role plays
a conductor
you’re my instrument
I pray
to never act this way
to love a lie I create, a charade
these instincts will take me to the precinct
for wanting things I can’t ask for
bodies I’d draw a map for
down from your eyes to whatever door
I can open
under you I’m folding conversations like tents in my mouth
hope you don’t figure it out
choking on words trying to be self assured but this
base takes over operations
primitive and impatient
sleeping with these visualizations
in the morning we condemn
and at night we give in to temptation
blank spaces become races for crowns I have no title for
I ask what I read the bible for
I cry like I’m guilty
less than I should
for sick thoughts polluting time in a waste
of all of us, asphyxiates futures for a taste
chews brain activity into mush I can’t escape
sluts don’t get to be smart
when all they think about is fucking
but damn I
want to watch you button down
with your buckle undone
fingernails around a condom
loosened up for one-on-one
calm enough to yawn some
drunk so much you gone son
don’t bother turning the switch on
get unzipped and flip wrong
my eye candy has gone along
tripped and fallen but
I’m strong enough
prize won’t collect itself.
so I lift it up on the bed
take off its shoes
check its head
find a bump, get some ice
turn it over on its side
cuz bodies full of booze can’t make invites
how’d you expect this fantasy to end like
an ear bite, sheets tight, winding legs like teens in a campsite
that’s not polite
taking love like a parasite
devouring you so I’m satisfied
why bother fucking if you won’t requite
porn ain’t life
it’s not alright
one yes is not all night equity
sex is not an enemy
homies aren’t prey
so quit huntin’ bae
